Thursday, September 19, 2024

WELCOME TO MY COLLECTION OF PUBLISHED WORK




I've been writing short and flash fiction since 2010. In 2023, I also began writing free-verse poetry. To this date, I've had forty-one short stories and a few free verse poems published. I'm submitting for publication less frequently now, but I get several stories accepted every year.

All my published work is scattered across the Internet, but I've collected the stories here. It's my equivalent of 'one-stop shopping'—just for you!

Browse to your heart's content, enjoying what you choose to read and making a note of a story or two to read later. Please tell your friends about my stories and invite them to drop by. 

I will add to this blog as each newly published piece of my writing becomes available. Some editors have exclusive rights that extend well beyond the published date; others let me post my story on this page as soon as it first appears in print. 

Over the years, I have built up a good inventory of unpublished stories. I frequently submit stories in hopes of securing publication. Many are rejected, and very few are accepted. 

This means that you will occasionally need to check back to 'Don Herald Stories' to discover newly published work.

Please respect that I've retained legal rights to each of my stories. Therefore, they cannot be copied and posted elsewhere. But ask me if you want to do something with one of my stories. I'm open to considering what you're proposing. But ask; please don't 'borrow' it from my page!

The photo at the top is entitled 'Wildfire In The Mountains'. I love the textures available in acrylic paint, so I experimented with them in this painting.


Thank you for stopping by.

Don

September 19, 2024

THE MAN WHO PAINTS



Strolling the Saturday Market, I come across a man who doesn’t belong. He doesn’t have a vendor stall like everyone else.

His eyes are clear, and the bright blue colour is oddly unsettling. He’s carefully watching the passing shoppers. He does not speak but occasionally nods and smiles. His teeth have seen much better days. They are mostly light brown except for the gold one, front center.

His gray-speckled beard is straggly. Food-stained yellow around the lips. Or perhaps from far too many unfiltered cigarettes. The thin, wispy hair is in desperate need of a good washing. Several different coloured shirts are layered beneath a well-worn canvas outdoor coat. The pants appear to be a nylon windproof. The cuffs are frayed and dirty. His boots, newish with thick rubber soles, seem too big for his feet. An Army Surplus backpack that looks like it has recently been to Afghanistan or maybe Ukraine lies beside him. A couple of hours ago, he was probably at one of the stoplights downtown, asking motorists for loose change.

But now the man is here. At the market. And he shouldn’t be.

But no one seems to mind.

The man has set up at the end of the first row of stalls closest to the main street. An upturned yellow Lumber Mart pail for a seat, a small easel beside, with a lightly soiled canvas that looked like it had been rescued from a waste bin that had refused to give it up easily.

Spread out on his knees is a battered tin tray with watercolour paints and two brushes alongside – one fine, the other a bit thicker. They look expensive, which doesn’t fit with the rest of him. On the ground, between his legs, is a white paper coffee cup cut down to one-third size. It’s empty.

A rough-cut cardboard sign leans precariously against the easel. The printing is done in careful, wide letters. That surprises me.

I will paint you.

Free.

Not everyone accepted.

Ask me.

I pause in front of him. I’d intended to continue on by looking for Dailey’s Apples.

But I stop.

He nods. Smiles.

I return his gaze.

‘You interested, sir?’

My mouth answers before it consults with my brain.

‘Yeah, I might be. What’s the deal?’

I flutter my fingers at everything, then point at his sign.

‘Not everyone accepted?’ I ask.

He smiles. The blue eyes quickly take me in. Top to bottom. Then return to my gaze.

‘Not everyone, sir. It’s all about energy. If I feel it coming off you, I’ll do your painting. If I don’t, well then, I’ll tell you where you can find the apple guy.’

How in hell did he know I was looking for Dailey’s? That’s just too weird.

I stare back at him. He’s waiting for me to ask.

‘Well?’  I pause. “Do I? Have the energy, I mean.’

‘Yep. I’ll paint you, sir. But first, there’s something you must do.’

He leans over between his legs, picks up the coffee cup, and gently offers it to me.

‘Put out your hand, sir. The left, please.’

I have a sudden feeling that, for him, the cup is the most precious possession he has.

I take the cup and nod.

‘Thanks. What do I do with it?’

‘Ah,’ he says. ‘That’s the tough part.’ He rearranges himself on the upturned bucket and leans toward me. He whispers.

‘I need you to put some of your tears in it. Not a lot. But some. Enough to wet the bottom of the cup.’

He pauses, carefully gauging my reaction to his request.

What the hell? My tears? Into a cup?

But in that weird moment, it feels like a totally reasonable request.

‘You want them now? Right here in the aisle?’

‘Whatever works for you, sir.’

That smile again.

‘If I may offer a suggestion? It helps to think about one of the saddest times of your life. Get into it. Let yourself go. When the tears start down your cheeks, collect them into the cup. Won’t take long before you have enough.’

He pauses.

‘Trust me, sir.’

People are rushing by. It’s noisy as Farmer’s Markets always are. The guy wants me to cry. On the spot. Out in public. No walking away and doing it in private.

‘OK, give me a couple of minutes.’

‘Take your time, sir. Such things, I know, they’re never easy.’

All at once, my world collapses inward. There’s only this guy and me. Nothing else matters right now.

The saddest time in my life? That’s easy. It’s my wife. She died a couple months ago. ALS. It was nasty. When she passed, my entire world became empty. I miss her terribly. I miss our intimacy. Her laugh. I miss the way she played joyously with our dogs. I miss her touch. I miss her smell. I miss the way she sorted and folded the laundry. For her, it had to be freshly warm right out of the dryer. I miss –

The man interrupts my thoughts.

‘Yes, sir. She was truly a special woman.’

There’s a sadness to his voice. ‘To be married for fifty-four years – well, these days, it’s a very long time.’

My god, how does he know about her? Know what I was thinking and feeling? Know how long we were married?

He’s a stranger to me. And yet, at this moment, he isn’t.

My cheeks are slick with tears. I place the cup on the left, then the right, back and forth until I have the bottom of the cup and then some—probably much more than he wants.

Silently, I hand back his cup. He glances inside. Gives a soft grunt.

‘Thank you, sir. Now it begins.’

He smiles.

He gets up from the pail, re-positioning it a couple of feet to the left. He picks up the easel and turns it slightly away from me. Just enough that I can’t see the full canvas.

He dips the thin-tipped brush into the cup and swirls it a bit in my tears. He removes the brush and places the wet tip onto a small pad of black powder in his tray. A line. Then another. Then many. There are many changes of brushes and colours. He dips into my tears, swirls, removes it, and then mixes it into the paint powders. I imagine sharp lines and colourful swaths are being placed onto the canvas.

I watch him intently working on the painting. He’s not looking back at me.

I’m standing a few feet away in the river of people pushing by. Minutes pass. I’ve no idea of time. The Saturday Market? It no longer exists for me.

He looks up.

‘I’m done.’ A pause. ‘Come close.’

He beckons me in from the aisle with a paintbrush still in hand.

He stands and steps aside to make way.

His painting sucks the air from my lungs in a wet gush.

This man, a stranger, has painted my wife perfectly. She’s smiling the way she always did – the slight promise of mischief always about to happen. She’s wearing her favorite blue sweatshirt, the one with the Orca on it. On the left hand is her sapphire wedding ring I gave to her in India many years ago.

His skill with watercolours is remarkable.

It’s as if I’m staring at her photograph.

‘My work here is done.’ He starts gathering up his things.

I’m looking at him, but words cannot come.

‘You’re wondering how,’ he smiles. ‘Well, sir, I’ll tell you a secret.’

Picking up the coffee cup, he examines it carefully, slowly turning it this way and that. Satisfied, he places it gently inside a glass jar wrapped in gray duct tape, screws down the metal lid, and slips it deep into the center fold of his backpack.

‘It’s the tears, sir. It’s all in your tears.’ 

First Published. September 17, 2024, in the American online magazine - A Thin Slice Of Anxiety.

The Backstory. I had a dream. It was emotionally powerful, and I awoke with a start. As so often happens in such matters, I could only remember a vague plot and character outline and the words which are the title of this piece. But I knew I must write about it right then. I began to write just after 3 am and by 8 am, I had a first draft.

Legal Rights. I own the rights to this story. Please don't 'borrow' it from this blog and publish it somewhere without my permission. Ask me. Tell me what you want to do with it. We will probably be able to work something out. 

Thursday, March 28, 2024

DRY LAKE


My family is the third generation to have the Fulbright cabin on the south shore of Dry Lake. Right at the end of Trapper’s Bay.

We’d spend our summers there - from the day after school’s out to the day before school’s in. And then occasional days after that until just after the first serious freeze-up.

Our Thanksgivings have always been held there. Everyone who’s able gathers to celebrate stuff. Birthdays, anniversaries, marriages, divorces, school graduations, the birth of Selma’s annual litter-mongrels all. Our family lumps everything into one gathering –‘to save the Fulbright’s all the bullshit of this and that throughout the damn year,’ according to Gumpa Senior - our family’s curmudgeon extraordinaire. Now only a memory because Senior’s up there in the clouds or wherever will have him, bitching loudly about what he liked to call – ‘the whole god damn ball of wax.’

Senior’s daddy Frank ran a winter trap line around Dry Lake’s south shore back when the only road in was dirt and gravel, hacked out of the bush for three point five miles from Rural Route 21, which ran from Moseley in the east to Triumph in the west.

Frank’d work as a sales clerk in Eaton’s down in the city, Monday to noon on Fridays. He’d hop into his old beater right from work and make the four-hour trek to the trap line, where he had a tent, an old wooden rowboat, and a drying shed for the furs. Mink, beaver, rabbit, the occasional wolf, and the even more occasional martin – anything that moved on four legs was fair game for Frank’s traps. He wasn’t one to care much about ‘them god damn city slicker rules about what I can hunt.’ Come sundown on Sundays, he’d trek back to the city, arriving just in time to punch in at 6 a.m.

Family legend has it that Frank made arrangements with his boss at Eaton’s to shower and shave in the locker room, washing away the smell of the dead animals and woodsmoke. In winter, Frank would go part-time at the department store to spend more time tending to his trap line. He’d drive to a pull-off along Route 21 and snowshoe the rest of the way into Dry Lake.

In winter ‘44, he began harvesting timber, rough cutting it into planks, and building an all-season shelter. No more living in a tent for him. Once he had the necessary four walls and a reasonable roof, Frank began adding a bit here, a larger bit there. In a few years, he had what most would call a cabin. Frank’s wife Rita – my great-grandma – would take their kids up for the summer, and her husband came up on weekends.

And thus, a family summer tradition was born. Passed down through two more generations.

And this is where my story really begins.

The summer I was twelve, almost thirteen, there was a mystery to solve at our place on Dry Lake. Stuff started disappearing. Silver-plated fishing lures. A bright red spin top. Yellow pencils. Twine by the yard. Fresh cedar shavings from beside the whittling stump. My sister’s favourite hand mirror. And then, food. Apples, nuts, half a banana, cookies left out by mistake, orange slices. One time – ok, maybe it was a couple of times - an entire family-size bag of potato chips. You get the picture.

We had our suspicions but had no real proof.

My sister was more freaked out about the disappearances than me. I was more interested in Eliza across the bay, a summer-long guest of the Fitzpatrick’s. Fifteen years old with nothing to do but lie on the dock in her black one-piece, read trashy romance novels, and write bad poetry in her journal.

I made a habit of paddling our old Peterborough canoe to the east shore, then along just in front of the Fitzpatrick’s dock whenever Eliza was sunning there. By then, I’d have my shirt off so she could see my teenage muscles rippling with every stroke of the paddle. I’d wave. She’d wave. Sometimes, she’d slowly stand up, stretch long and easy like a cat, and then wave. Oh, boy, that always made my long paddle worth it.

We never said a word to each other the entire summer. But a thirteen-year-old hormonally powered boy doesn’t need real words as long as he has imagination. Oh, the conversations we had! Eliza was my first true love. On Fitzpatrick’s dock. In the sunshine. In that sleek but deliciously rounded black one-piece. Writing me passionate and sexually explicit love poetry in her small journal with the stiff red cardboard cover.

But, to get back to the mystery.

From the day my fresh waffles started disappearing, I decided to get serious about solving the mystery.

Mom would always be up by six. She had her routines at Dry Lake. Make some coffee and head down to our small dock just as the sun rose above the eastern shoreline. The dock always quietly creaked up and down under her weight.

She smoked one, sometimes two, cigarettes, blowing the smoke above her head. Sometimes, if the morning air was still, she’d blow rings within rings that would lift, expand, break apart, and disappear. I often wondered what she thought about in those private times out on the dock.

Her life wasn’t easy married to my Dad, a tough, no-nonsense ironworker from the smokey mills in Hamilton. She’d reluctantly married into the Fulbright clan. Some would always say she ‘married down,’ but a baby waits for no man or woman, so a quickie civil ceremony was arranged at Hamilton City Hall. I appeared seven months later. Instant family. And a ‘summer house’ on Dry Lake as a wedding gift.

Mom would make a plate of six waffles, smother it in syrup brought up in gallon jugs from the city, set it out on the long table, and call at me – ‘Your waffles are up, Ritchie. Rise and shine. The day’s half gone.’

Some days that’d work, and I’d crawl out of bed, wrap myself in a sheet, and dig in. Most days, however, I’d leave the waffles getting cold until later in the morning. For breakfast, the only thing better than hot waffles is cold waffles.

By early July, Mom had figured out I had a thing for Eliza over at the Fitzpatricks. I suspect my sister told her, but she denies it, even to this day.

 ‘I think I see that girl out on the Fitzpatrick’s dock,’ she’d yell at me. That got me going the first few times, but I knew from watching Eliza through binoculars that she never made it onto the dock until close to noon. Like me, Eliza was a late riser. I often wondered what it would be like to be lying beside her when Mom would call out about the waffles.

After Mom set my waffles on the table, she’d do her chores elsewhere in the cottage or outside in the veggie garden she was struggling with between our back door and the outhouse. My sister loved to garden, and she was always out there with her. My plate of steaming waffles and syrup was left unprotected. They began disappearing, day after day.

The Fulbright cottage always remained rough-built. It was another of those family traditions held sacred by the men of the Fulbright clan. If you have to fix or make something at the family home on Dry Lake, build it quick, build it rough, build it to last. It didn’t matter if boards were a tad short, a bit too thick. ‘Don’t worry over it too much, Ritchie,’ my Dad would always say. ‘This is Dry Lake, my boy. It ain’t Forest Hill. That board’s good enough.’

So, I’m understating it to tell you that the place had a few spaces in the walls, floor, and ceiling. Great for letting in mosquitos, stink bugs, and some of the largest, meanest-looking spiders you’ll ever come across in cottage country. When you combine those holes with a plate of delicious waffles smothered in the sweetest maple syrup – well, it spells nothing but an opportunity for a mother red squirrel and her brood of four little ones.

We called her Hoppy. She hopped like a rabbit but climbed trees. At Dry Lake, almost everything is not what it seems. Hoppy was raising her hungry little family inside a large cavity in the fork of the ancient spruce between our cottage and the dock. She’d sit on a solid branch that stretched out toward the window above our sink. From her perch, she could easily look right into our place. She didn’t miss a thing.

So it was that Hoppy didn’t miss my waffles. Her nose told her a pile of stuff in there was worth investigating. It was an easy jump from the end of the bouncing limb to a hole beneath the shingles, along the attic rafter to one of those ‘good enough’ holes in the ceiling above the bedroom door, down the wall ending in a longish but not impossible leap onto the table. One cautious hop, pause, then another cautious hop, pause, and then - dig in. Hoppy made short work of those waffles. She’d eat some, save some for her kids, retrace her hops back to the nest, drop off chunks of the waffle to the squealing little ones, and then return quickly to the waffles. She’d repeat this each and every day that I didn’t beat her to those waffles first.

Now that I knew how she got into our place, I could’ve quickly boarded up the holes. But the Fulbright home on Dry Lake has more holes than solid board, so what was the point?

That summer, Hoppy and I made a deal. ‘Some mornings, it’s yours; other mornings, it’s mine.’ Early bird gets the worm and all that stuff.

I knew that Eliza would love the story of Hoppy and the waffles. She’d surely write a poem about it and read it to me over the dying embers of our campfire on a deserted beach on Shudder Lake—only in my dreams. I never told her. A poem was never written. Another opportunity lost.

Oh, there’s one other thing.

I’m sure you’ve been wondering about this little ‘Fulbright Fact’ since you started reading my story: How can a lake be called Dry Lake? I mean, almost by definition, aren’t all lakes in Ontario full of water? Lots of water?

Family legend has it that when the first Fulbright discovered the lake in 1940, he and Jack Daniel were very close friends. One day, while under the spell of Jack, great-grandpa Frank chopped off a big toe when he should’ve chopped a chunk of wood. He nearly bled to death but packed the injury with tree moss, poured liberal amounts of Jack on the wound, and swore he’d never touch a drop again. When he was sober, he called the water all around him Dry Lake.

At least, that’s what family legend says happened.


First Published. January 16, 2024, in Canada's 'CommuterLit'.

The Backstory. This is one of those story ideas that just pops into one's head for no true rhyme or reason. I remember that I enjoyed writing the early drafts. When I was a kid, I dreamed about the young woman in that tight, revealing black bathing suit appearing on the neighbour's dock on a hot July afternoon in the Kawarthas. Maybe that's where the idea for this cottage story had its origins.

Legal Rights. I own the rights to this story. Please don't 'borrow' it from this blog and publish it somewhere without my permission. Ask me. Tell me what you want to do with it. We will probably be able to work something out. 

 

WELCOME TO MY COLLECTION OF PUBLISHED WORK

I've been writing short and flash fiction since 2010. In 2023, I also began writing free-verse poetry. To this date, I've had forty-...